Revenge Is Sweet

Things Change

2006-08-08T20:07:00.000+08:00

Well its really amazing things change. People change to.. Its either for good or for worst. I learnt many things this year abt people that we can and cannot trust. Some people betray that trust and seize the moment to rip us apart. I miss certain things abt the past. The super great people who did camps for passion. Now its really dormant and people start moving with other companies. I did for Innotrek and Camelot. Well currently those two companies are the power houses. Well lets just see.. what will happen down the road.

Im fed Up

2006-08-07T20:41:00.000+08:00

How many relationships must i go through to have a decent one. Its always less then two months that my relationships go bad. Im i that bad to people. I hate it. I dont wish to go through this feeling again. Even sometimes i longed for a girl for love for who i am. But its just impossible for me. I may be jinxed..Never to have a decent girl who can stand my attitude and character. Im not that difficult to handle. Im not stubborn.. Im not that difficult to understand. Whats wrong wit me. Is there anyone out there who can prove me wrong. I noe i got no looks but i always believe that if we put in effort everything can go well. Mira if your reading this, im just pissed by the way you made your decision. Not even facing me you decide the outcome of our future via sms. I think you got no courage to face me and tell me straight in the face. I pity your ex. He's the one who suffered the most. Return my bloody bag and ill leave you alone.

SuperGirl

2006-06-14T17:11:00.000+08:00

Let me tell you abt this gerl i got to meet. She's one of the cutest gerls i ever laid my eyes on. Good personality wif a little bit of spice in her. Well she's also someone i fell instantly for because she made me feel comfortable toking to and there was thing abt her that made me flip and take notice. Its her smile. There was abit of shyness here and there but it was my eye catcher. Well i dont expect much from her. I just hope she's not like other girls who left me dry without reason. Everyday i put aside a certain prayer for her health and happiness. Im trying my best to be there for her and wont give up so easily. I want to make this relationship go the distance. I hope she can handle me well coz i need some handling. I love this girl. She's my idol

Goodbye Wannie

2006-04-30T16:54:00.000+08:00

I never imagine something like that would happen. I was in a very pissed mood. I was holding back my temper as it was out of control. My bubly self was not there most of the time cause i felt like fucking anyone who comes in my way. My bike was burned to ashes and wasnt a pretty sight. I felt hatred and sad. I was down in tears. Even though its just a bike but it felt like i lost someone dear to me. Who could have done this i wonder. What was the motive.I miss my bike..

Knowledge Is Power

2006-03-02T13:12:00.000+08:00

I could never have imagined me being someone important in a camp. Although i was just a station master but the responsibility was overwhelming. I had to check and counter check the safety of the students and the instructors. Knowledge is Power some would say. If you have the knowledge to handle these situations, i guess they would have done better. Anyway during this wonderful experience i get to know alot of great people.Hmmm for example miss diana or should i call her Dee. Very sporting and very understanding. This girl can really go the distance. I wonder have all the sporty girls go. To my surprise, she even changed the indiana jones to indiana jonet. Next is miss vivien. She really rocks. She is super nice and loves massages. haha then there is SheeMun. Well im really close with her. She keeps me safe and warm. Thats wat buddies are for. Well there is Angie. Crazy girl...haha she just likes to get violent. Because of her i got kick on the nuts. Not a nice experience. Well thats for the moment.. To everybody out there. Chill and keep cool.

Freedom

2006-02-01T20:17:00.000+08:00

How could someone understand what life really means??Is it something that everyone look for?? Is it a purpose or a way of life. I used to look at somebody pretty and i would go wow. She's pretty wish i could have her. But nowadays i just went blank and see whats more important. The heart. For once in my life i understood what it meant by true love. Maybe now is not the time. Maybe later. For now im just enjoying what i do best. The outdoors. I love the outdoors and the people doing the same thing im doing...I feels great and love to be with them. Maybe this is what i call freedom. Anyway i just wanna say thanks to some school like Clementi Town Sec, Assumption English School and others who i did camps with. its an experience never to forget. Moulding the future of youngsters now and the future.

16 - 20 Camp

2006-01-21T19:52:00.000+08:00

Just returned from a tiring one week camp. And its back to back. Pingyi Sec and St Patrick. Anyway life for me have been good. Problems here and there but i can take the pressure. GF? Well im not ready for one. After that experience, i rather be with nature. I dyed my hair brown..Very funn feeling but its okie. Virgin hair..hahah Update you guys next time. My hands are full.

Invisible Man

2006-01-03T15:03:00.000+08:00

Yes i kept quiet. Yes i ran away. Yes i shut everyone out of my life and retreat to the thing i love most. Going back to nature. Joining RACE has made me realise that we take things for granted and it made me a better person. Sometimes i ask myself why my life had to be that way and crumble down in pieces. First i argued with my brother then i lost my gf then i was nearly charged for awol. And other shitty things that happened. I wish i had another chance to change things and make up for it. For now i won't be in singapore most of the time. Ill be at Malaysia conducting camps. Till next entry...

Hari Raya

2005-10-31T22:27:00.000+08:00

Alot have happened to me these few weeks. Some sweet memories some HOrrible ones. But i think i should just let it pass and forget abt it. But one thing is for sure i become an outdoor instructor and Race adventures. Real cool..Thats what i ever wanted to be an outdoor instructor. Having fun at the same time getting paid. Well Kamal was so crossed with me because of something i said and i did apologise to him. But still he has that grudge on me. But ill let cool of some steam. Maybe he needs his own space. Hari raya well. Not buying new clothes stil wearing the old ones.Guess i wont be celebrating.

Long Lost Lovers

2005-09-13T15:15:00.000+08:00

After 5 years not having to see each other. Look what happen, a cute couple. I present to you my sweetheart. Naifa. Hmm i wonder whether this is a picture of a picture perfect couple. Separated and reunited as one. Although we had gone our own seaprated ways but here and now, we decided to be back as one.

I knew you'd be there
I knew you'd call my name
You know I'd always need you
Deep Inside our heart beat as one

I've been looking for you
I never did once give up
You waited for my return
From day to night you prayed

I came back now
Safe in your arms
My heart has found home
I hear your heart beats alive

Time is never enough
Eternity it will last
We found each other
Never to lose it one time more

The Old Flame Returns

2005-09-10T02:49:00.000+08:00

Its been 5 long years since i last saw here. The last time i saw her, i made her cry and sad and made her depressed but it all changed when we meet again 5 years later. Yes she has forgiven me and yes she's back in my life. We're back together again after 5 long years. Nothing abt her has changed much. She's still the caring person which i know. She was my first love and my only longest one. Her name is junaidah. But i call her ifa for short. She's have been through shit and back and she's still smiling. Im glad i get to see her and be with her. God has answered my prayers. Well the other good news. My bro kamal has joined Revenge. HAHA..Yes ah.. a long time to hear that good news. Anyway..i miss my girl friend so much. Wish i could see her everyday. 08/09/2005 we're together again. hehe.. For once in my life, im happy and i really mean it.

Untitled

2005-09-02T16:15:00.000+08:00

I woke up feeling depressed most of the time. Wasn't being myself lately. Is it because of girls that i am feeling this way. Is it because of werk? Or is it because of life itself. Yesterday i went to a pub and got myself drunk. The ride from orchard to clementi was like never ending. My head was like in the washing machine. I thank god for sparing my life yesterday. I was greatful that i can see another sunrise. I got up early in the morning and had my bath. 11 pm my dad came back from west coast park. There was a sudden urge to do something. I got up went straight to my dad and gave him a hug. First time in my life i felt happy. It wasn't money which made me happy. It wasn't fame. It wasn't a gorgeous girl which made me happy. It was someone there all my life. When i was a toddler till what i am now who made me happy. If any of you are reading this. Give your dads and mums a hug. See what happens to your heart, your mind, and your soul. I did it. U should too. Abt girls, i kinda wonder who my wife is gonna be. Whether she truly take care of me. I just hope that one day, i could meet her.

Not Again

2005-08-17T15:55:00.000+08:00

Its unpredictable to what your heart desires. Your wishes, your dreams. For me, it always happens all the time. Feeling hurt and sad all thoughout my life. I want to be happy. Nothing else. But its not time yet i think. I always pray for the best. That one day i will meet that special someone who not only love me, but also take care of me. But i have been hurt again. Its noones fault. Its only mine. I hoped to much and in the end backfired on me. Yesterday night i couldnt sleep. I was on top of a multistorey carpark looking at the sky and wondering when will i be one. I sound silly at times. Talking to myself. There was people looking at me from their kitchens as i screamed out loud letting go my stress and anger. Usually i ride my bike and go for a ride doing deep corners and going fast on the expressway but its different yesterday. i didn't know why. Im totally wretched. In the outside, im ok. But in the inside, a million pieces. The girl i liked is so close but yet so far. Till my next entry.

A Girl

2005-08-15T19:15:00.000+08:00

She's one of a kind this gerl. A gerl everybody wants but can't get. I gerl who is the ultimate prize for guys but i can't take her as a prize. No i can't. A friend i met from a few years ago. Wasn't paying attention to her coz i think she was already busy with someone else. I in the other hand was too engrossed with motorbikes and other girls. Hmmm Well guys will be guys. I ain't a guy if i don't look at girls. But i was changing then.. Into someone who finally understand what life is. Its not how rich or how famous we need to be, its the simplicty of living that makes us happy. Abt this girl i mentioning, she has the simplicity of being herself. Not other people but herself. She stays at home in the company of her family and hangs out wif friends once in a while. Because of this. i adore her from a far. Respecting her every decision and comment. Ive talk to her once. Talked for hours, didn't notice the time. Really amazing this girl. I wish i could meet her one day and tell her how much she really mean to me but it is all abt fate. I won't mention any names but i guess if she's reading this, she'll just smile away and thinking thats her. Well youre the only one who have a lifestyle like this. Family is important, the closer you are, the harder for you to go a stray. True right!! I noe im gonna have a great family. A loving wife, cheerful children. Thats my main aim in life..TO be happy. Living with a coz. To this girl i adore i hope you read this. Youre always somewhere in my mind and i hope someday youll be in my heart.

ORD oh

2005-08-01T20:04:00.000+08:00

Another 4 more months to go before i end my misery in Civil Defence. Really can't believe it has been almost 2 years. I did enjoy the experience of my Rota friends like Zakariah, Farhan, Alam and Chua. Without them, i wouldn't have survived the time spent. It was fate to meet such people. I was really lucky..God bless them.. Currently im staying with my Sister at Jurong West..I really feel welcomed there.. Nothing the worry abt..Love my Sis alot..Im currently still single..haven't met the one yet..Poor me. Well what happened these few months have been rather unforgetable. The trip to sentosa, picnic at east coast...Funny at times...Lots of jokes..Hehe..Got drunk plenty of times..There is the part where i met Aida a Hostess at Mahligai Manis. She's drop dead gorgeous. My eyes can't let go from her..But i can't be dreaming to having her.Ermm it all depends on fate.. SO life carries on..Anyway just got my pay today...Meeting Kamal later...Chau people..Have a great week.

What I Want

2005-06-30T12:45:00.000+08:00

My struggle in life. My shitty past. My fucked up attitude. I really wanna be someone important for a change but i keep getting set backs and people backstabbing me. I suffered most of the time by insults of people. I am what i am. Noone can change me except for myself. Ive been longing for love but i always end up in a awkward situation. Maybe now is the right time to be alone and improve on myself. Buy my dream bike, having a decent salary. Saving up to buy a house with kamal. Be free from all these pain and suffering.. I juat hope someday someone would love me for me. Not abt looks, not abt money..its abt love..I tasted it once and lost it..Hell will break loose if i loose another. Im gonna prove to all those people out there who mock me that ill turned out alright.I good friend, a good brother, a good lover..

My Boring Self

2005-06-22T13:50:00.000+08:00

I could only imagine what a person might turn out to be. I love to be loved and hate to be hated. I guess noone's perfect in life. I tried my best to please everyone but in the end.. It turns out bad..One a single day ive been labeled a playboy. Hurts me real bad. If i was a playboy, i would have plenty of gerls to change. But i have gal friends not girlfriends. It saddens me even more when my own friend who i had known for 5 years called me that..Calling a guy a player is like calling a girl a bitch. Noone perfect..Im just being myself.So for those gerls who know me.. Stay away from a player like me..Make my life miserable. I trully hope to find the one for me. I wish she could come sooner so that i can put this nonsense aside. Or maybe i am a player who have evil intentions at heart. Well thats from others to judge me. Guess youre right all along. I should go back to my crib and think this over. Peace people. If you are reading this..Give me your views. Am i a player?? Do people hate me that much.

Long John Silver

2005-06-06T20:34:00.000+08:00

Started the day at home sleeping till 1500hrs. Just got back from Camp...6 months to go .ORD Oh hehe.. Anyway.. Kamal message me.. An urgent message asking me to call him... ASAP.. Sekali false alarm.. Haiyah.. Waste time.. But nevermind.. called up my gal friend Yana.. Who is currently werking at 711... Super Bowl. Met at Long John Silver EEeeeee Yahhhhh. Heheh.. Anyway Yana looks chubby.. She looks delicious.. Feel like biting her hehe... Tini well.. Still kecik kecik cili padi...Hmmm kecik tapi dia punya pukul kusmangat sakit gilernya.. Well tml my birthday.. Haha who cares right.. Hehe.. Hmmmm miss sha sha.. still looking at hot as ever..Love the new hairdo...Cool girl.. Keep it up... When we were toking,kamal and and mr world farid came...I noticed he lost a few teeth. Ouch scars on his face.. Tu lah cakap besar kan.. Ni balasan nya...Hmmm anyway i reflection of what happened these few weeks..Met alot of people..New people i meet.. interesting people..I returned to Denvers my Cheerleading team.. Was very uncomfortable but it was the price of going awol on them.. I really didn't mean it.. I was just depressed and had loads of probs in my life. Thhe other reason was abt yuni..Denvers brought back loads of memories abt her.. I noe inoe yuni again.. But thats what i feel, really. So i went awol but i doesn't mean i can't mend old scars...Anyway birthday tomolo.. Haha cool... To those friends who are constantly helping me.. Thanks.. I love you guys...And to kamal... you helped me alot in one ways or another.. Your a friend, a brother.. My family..I promise ill be by your side like you have been all these years..All right thats all folks...Thanks again.

Match Maker

2005-05-03T18:51:00.000+08:00

How could two people be together??? What is needed to flourish the relationship. Is it money? Is it attention??Is it love?? Well its always abt the risk we take and also the sacrifices. We could only sacrifice alot for someone, but i guess the main thing which really makes it real is the attention. Sometimes i can be annoying but thats how i show i really care. Irritating erm that too..Make goofy remarks ermm thats me. Weird..unpredictable. Thats me too..How on earth would someone like me for me?? Endure my childness and craziness. Who?? Well that decision is left to god.

Decision

2005-05-03T18:41:00.000+08:00

Have you ever felt so wrong in your life. Where everything else around you seem so faded. I could only tell myself to calm down maybe there is something better than this. I never want to show an act in front of people. What you see is what you get. Nothing more nothing less. Currently in my life. I am faced with a dilemma. My heart is caught between warmth of love and the coldness of darkness. I sometimes can't stand what im going through. I don't blame others but what have i done to deserve this painful curse. I beg of you not to dissapoint me for i have lost faith in myself. Lost as it may seem but you are the light that i follow. I try and i try to make it worthwhile it always come crashing down. I don't ask alot. I just worry to much. Ive been cheated before, treated like im heartless, devastated time and time again. I hope to change all that and im leaving it to you to decide. You can either make me or break me. I will not pull your strings or force you to decide. The choice is yours to make. Decide well cause it determine my fate.

Life

2005-04-26T19:09:00.000+08:00

Its been said that life is like a box of chocolates..You never know what your gonna get..I thought i had found her..The gerl of my dreams..Just what i always dream of.. Short hair, sweet, good dancer, and slim. The people pleaser..Popular by nature..Even though life isn't all good to her but life has to go on..But last night at hard rock..She was there with someone else..in someone's arms.. Well..Its a another hope gone. Really sad inside. But i can't do shit..Im not hers and she's not mine..So whats there to it. Guess im just not having that kind of luck. But i do learn something from this..And that is being yourself is the most important thing you should do meeting a new friend. Well life goes on as usual..I guess she didn't even care i was there or not. Sometimes it sucks being invisible. But someone got to be in this position and accept the facts. I hope someone is out there made for me. Im longing for someone to love and to care for.. Its not a short period but an eternity. To Yuni, i always mention you in my blogs cause i can't stop thinking abt you..Maybe im in denial..maybe im hallucinating but im always feel you`re thinking abt me. Take care people. This is life.

Morning Run

2005-04-12T13:45:00.000+08:00

I took my shorts and wore my shoes.And i was off..Down the steps and through my void deck..And on to the road..Each step i took, requires effort..I feel the wind against my face. My mind completely blank..Obviously something was wrong abt me..Emotionally..I ran for abt 10 minutes and i reached West Coast Park..My shirt was wet..I took a long breath and and sat for a minute..Tears rolling down my eyes..I can't contained it inside of me..It was all to difficult..I thought of her..Yuni..I could now understand what it feels like to love someone so much..The pink pillow..the pink pants..The beach..Got drunk..Paradigm..I fell on my knees..Oh god..why did it happen this way..Damn it hurts..Yuni live well..You are always remembered.

Being Happy

2005-04-04T16:46:00.000+08:00

How could i ever miss what we have in the world..The greatness that shines everyday..Have you ever see the sun after a heavy rain...Its beautiful you know..Hmm there must be something wrong with me..Im talking nonsense..Haha anyway the week have been busy for me..No time to court girls. Haha there's a chick beside me..Hehe. she's hot...Well takkan nak kacau kan. Tak baik..Sebelah sebelah lagi..Haha Hmmm Zaidi Zaidi. tak habis habis pompuan..Apa nak buat..selagi tak jupa miss right, still looking for her..haha...Anyway hp dah kena potong..Relak gilernya.. takde orang kacau aku.. i think gonna cut my line..Let me have peace and quiet...Anyway peace people...Im single available...and always have time to court girls haha

A New Beginning

2005-03-26T22:15:00.000+08:00

I apologise for the long time since i last posted an entry.. Currently i have involved myself in many things.. Got a very big heartache with someone i only knew on the phone...Well you know who you are..i have learnt not to trust someone so fast.. You'll end up a vegetable..Hmmm to Riana darling.. may you rest in peace....Ahaks...Well the i have been involved Greatly in a porduct called AMWAY.. so if you guys out there wanna but detergents, softners....well particularly every single item in the house... including nutritional tablets..Hmm gonna be rich one day... you'll gonna believe in that...Well lastly..i would like to apologise to my US bros...Im in difficult position..Ill get back to you guys soon.. So peace aight...Kamal congrats on passing you license.. You're one step closer to becoming a road devil like me...So when is your bike gonna come in??To Yuni.. if your reading this.. I need you dear...Hmmm i could only wish it... Ermm errr oh yah...Be cool aight people.. I may be out and beaten but im not a quitter. so youll see me around alot... Rocket to the TOP

BURN

2005-02-15T16:36:00.000+08:00

We could only expect the unexpected.. I can't be good neither can i be bad..It hurts to the core abt what happened to me in the past..Been stripped of love..Yuni if your reading this, im still your biggest fan..though its like been 1 year and a half since i last saw you, your picture is still in my wallet and ill take you whatever i go..Well whats past is past..Ill be looking forward to seeing my fate..If there is anyone out there who can give me that love i lost, im yours forever..The past is hard to burn..Burn to the core.

My Valentine

2005-02-15T14:57:00.000+08:00

Some people must be wondering what happened to me on valentines day.. haha it sucks big time coz i spend it with my camp guys..Well they are not a bad bunch but i was expecting a romantic day with a girl i like or love..What happened to Q..hmm well she left me for what reason im not sure.. She said she wasn't in love with me..I can't do anything...Can't blame here though...anyway back to the story.. i spend a whole afternoon wit my cousin shikin...Had fun shopping.. not me lah..her friends... maklumlah baru dapat gaji...ahaks...But deep inside, i felt sucky...no date...no love.. sedih aku...but its okie, there is always next year..hmmm i wonder when will i have a gf...hmmm hoping for that day... anyone wanna be my date next year...advance booking... hahah.. cheer peeps... take care .. and happy belated valentines day..

Bored Man

2005-01-29T14:06:00.000+08:00

Another boring day in camp as i wait till morning...Life seems really slow for me..But i need not worry cuase my darl is in my mind..Anyway my life have been ups and downs..Meeting strange people along the way..Haven't get my ers.. so sad..Going to modify my friends ps2.. hehe so excited.. Well thats abt it..Pls peeps give your comments on the new webby.. with video..Chill people..

Cousin Got Married

2005-01-27T14:24:00.000+08:00

Hey there.. welcome to another addition to my life haha.. Well january 27th is a memorable day cause my cousin got married.. One of my closest cousin to me... Sedih kita haha.. Well happy for her.. 1 down.. 3 more to go.. she's the second youngest in her family..Well me i was busy taking pictures until i forget to take pictures of myself.. selenge kan.. haha.. Well tired and worn.. i await my darling Q to message me.. She's a busy gerl... hmm anyway congrats again cuz...may you have a happy marriage..Peace out

Quraisha

2005-01-26T14:14:00.000+08:00

Hello you peeps out there.. Im back writing in another episode of my life..Telling you abt whats happening..You guys out there tag me aight...Kind of bored if you all never tag me... heheh... Anyway i like to tell you abt a special gerl i met a few days ago.. How we met was like a story in a hindustan movie.. hahha funny right.. Well her name Quraisha..She has the most sweetest smile i ever encountered..While i was werking at canadian pizza, i send an order at blk 426 clementi ave 3 i think..Cannot remember lah..When i reach the place, a decent face greeted me.. At first it was like normal.. Nothing special abt this gerl.Untill she smiled.. I was like skipped a beat..The whole day i was thinking abt the smile of hers then i remembered that this gerl look familiar..So i called quraisha..The first thing i ask was where she lived.. Then she say Jurong West..Dalam hati cakap alamak salah orang lah....When i continue messaging her.. she ask me who is that gerl..? so i described to her what happened. TO her surprised, it was her. hehe Coincidence right Hehe.. Well we started talking and messaging each other..Ive becoming quite close to her..Well thats part of the story.

Goin To Town

2005-01-18T15:59:00.000+08:00

Its another day that day... met at 4pm kat clementi mrt Station...hmm VAIN reached there first.. Actually me lah yang sampai dulu.. heheh ehem hehe turun jap beli air.. anyway.. Our pLn.. going to town... Asik asik lepak town aje.. hmmm Si Modish Pulak pakai seluar sengkat.. Rude Boy attire dia.. Si Till Toe ermm steel toe mosibat pegecut tu pakai macam mat rip.. eeee tak best ah... hmmm and me ..With mat moto attire.. heheh We went to town...argh fast forward ah KAMAL AKA VAIN JATUH DALAM KEDAI STUSSY. HAHAHA KEKEK KAKAKAKAKAK DEPAN POMPUAN HAHAHH KAKAKA.. Well itu aje nak comment.. harap vain nampak note nie... heheheh... ANyway Congrats to SIngapore...Winning 2-1 against Indonesia.. hahah CHampions again... hahah Cheers

A Date

2005-01-14T19:13:00.000+08:00

Fuyoo. got a date today... With someone i knew when i was in secondary school...Sabrina's her name.. NO no not the teenage witch but Sabrina from Tanglin Sec... Well its been while since i met her.. Hmm gonna like go around town with her.. Honestly im nervous talking to her.. She's like damn smart.. And cute too.. hehe... Well update you next time on what happen on this gratefull day

4pm

2005-01-13T17:05:00.000+08:00

I recently went to a function organised by 4PM( Persatuan Persuratan Pemuda Pemudi Melayu)..Well its like the past coming up to me and saying hi.. I missed the old days where i go to camps and organise trips. I was on my way up there being somebody but.. Things didn't go as planned. My interest fades away.. I look back and noticed that i wasted alot of time in cheerleading and gerls.. Not that its useless but i could have done better.. I miss barnets jokes, falahs seriousness..Kak Saadah's sweet smile... Abg Mels Cuteness.. Pika's mengarut..Hamzah's super handshake and the rest of the gang.. I feel that i have to manage my time a bit better... Forget the gerls...Forget the nonsense stuff.. its time to change.. Change to what?? Hmm no sure though...Well i keep shifting my interest..No wonder get confused easily.. Well what to do.. this is life.. Im a volunteer and will always be...

My Sista

2004-12-25T16:50:00.000+08:00

Hey there... anythere entry by me.. Non other then Mr Revenge himself. Today met my sista and send her to werk... With a pitstop to mcdonalds for lunch.. Haha she looks great..Hai~~ Anyway we tok for a while.. She and her probs and me with mine.. We share alot things together.. haha.. She got new handphone liao wah so good.. hahaGot my pic her handphone... Later go to werk.. Sian ah... Anyway kamal... SHe said ok liao..Later i message you her number.. Make sure you don't do anything funny ah.. If i noe you do something funny... I find you hor... HmmmOk untill next time.. CHill People

Playstation 2

2004-12-22T15:16:00.000+08:00

I found my companion of the year...And that is Playstation 2.. Been wanting that for along time... and now it is time i have my own.. Hahahah after i get my 400 bucks...it will be mine... Anyway i have met a new friend... Nadia nama dia..Haha...Haven't met her in person...But im sure she is nice...Anyway she just discharge from Hospital..Poor thing..Take care of yourself ya...Check out my blogger along the way..Hmmm..To my Unknown Bros..The website needs time to complete so bare with me ya... It will soon be completed..To everybody else.. keep chilling and stay happy and happening.. Love you all...

New Year Resolution

2004-12-17T16:16:00.000+08:00

My New Year resolution is hmmmm let me see... Be happier than this year...Take care of my darling wannie ( my bike )...Take care of my love ones... Like my Sista Shidah...My family and friends... Be more commited to Team Revenge... HMmm Argh... loads of stuff.. malas sangat nak type semua... ANyway Me wanna apologise to all my exes for being a jerk this past year...Even if i didn't do anything wrong. Well sedap kan hati dorang.. Hahah...Well my theme for 2005.. Is i think.. ermm BE SAFE THEN SORRY... hehe to all my peeps out there.. take care and have a wonder ful 2005...

The Advice

2004-12-16T17:00:00.000+08:00

Last night i had a long conversation with a good friend of mine. I can all most recall how we first met.. Its like really cool. I made her happy on her birthday..giving her bling bling ear rings..She loved it. Well i could almost tell anyone what she liked and what she adores...Sadly to say we're just friends.. hehe..But she gave me a good advice in return for what i gave her.. An advice that may change my life..She told me to not find someone special..Just let that special someone come to you...Other than that, just be yourself and never forget your friends.. Hmm how sweet of her.. Maybe thats the problem with me.. Finding gerls to who fit me but in the end.. A disaster.. Like some of my previous relationships..Its just very heart breaking to let go of someone you love and really can clik with..I really miss one person who inspired me and taught me how to love in the first place. Yuni Irwana Bte Yusoff..I still keep her picture in my wallet and a picture with her in red in my red facing the bed...Gerl you really are someone special.Hope your guy treats you well.

Back To Square One

2004-12-15T15:18:00.000+08:00

Hmmm im back to my old self again... Eventually people can't change who you are.. Youre just you in the end.. Life goes on for me...I think that trusting something is better then someone...I will always have Wannie ( my bike ) in my mind...She's been there for me through thick and thin.. Life as it is have many surprises ad that will arise alot of questions in my mind.. For now on.. im gonna leave to fate and nothing else...I don't blame my exes for breaking up with me...Im just glad its all behind me...Im gonna lose my line anyway.. so its better i dissapear from them...This is my story.. and this is how im gonna live..If there is someone out there for me, i will meet her someday...My sista shidah.. werking and schooling.. poor thing..i pity you sis.. you are werking hard.. but its not always what we wanted in life...you go gerl and go on with life.. i will always be here by your side..

Old Crushes Hard To Burn

2004-11-25T11:40:00.000+08:00

Hmmm where can i start..ermm well yesterday went hari raya outing with friends from Jurong Secondary School.. Had a great time..Really treasure the times we spent together.. Through thick and thin...hehe damn we are still keeping in touch despite our different lives..Well each individual is special..Then let me tell you a bit here and there abt them..Hehe.. First up Yana..hmm a very shy gerl..sekali glance kan ingatkan minah hindustan ah.. hahah well deep inside she's a great gal to know.Any guy will be lucky to have her a gerlfriend...Jangan marah eh Yana. Second..Kartini.. Yeah well i like to see her as tiny tini..hehe small friend i ever known..orang kata kecik kecik cili padi..kalau dah makan pedas sekali.. it means kacau dia mesti kena pukul rabaknya..hehe..Tini a very down to earth person.. Good to talk to....Thirdly Aisah.. Well she's my ex.. without noeing her, i won't know the others..She's my first love..Old flame hard to put out.. Even though it has been a few years i known her..Seeing her each time made me remember the past when i was with her.. But im sure she has moved on and being happy with life..Well i should too.. Fourthly Aidah.. also my ex tapi sekejap aje... dia stead ngan kita pun pasal keciankan.. well what to do.. orang macam gini pun ader.. tapi i have no grudges against her.. Still her friend though...Fifthly Rina...the other small gerl... fuyoo gangsta terus..Garang gilernya.. She has a 2 year old kid named Eddy..really cute..i wish i have her picture with her son.. Wah salute lu lah rina..Gerl you rawk.Sixly Shahidah... minah ni dah kahwin.. happy for her.. tak berbual ngan dia sangat ah tapi she's a nice gerl.. glad to noe her..ANyway for those i miss out sorry eh...takde banyak time ah nak buat nie.. Tapi bottom line..you all rawk my world.. Thanks for being my friends.

Wannie

2004-11-15T21:56:00.000+08:00

This babe of mine is really my faithful wife..Been with me since a year ago.Proud of her and always loving my wife..Hmm well its better to love something then someone hmm..I really appreciate what wannie have done for me..Love ya wannie hehe. Wannie will never hurt me but she cost alot haha..Well i think some people got me wrong...Being someone im not.. But im sure i noe myself and i noe what im capable of..Hmm its hari raya..selamat hari raya to my sis and to my bros Kamal, Faizal Gangsta and my family..Whoever knows me.. hehe maaf eh kalau terkasar bahasa.. love you all.. Peace out guys.. keep on living..

Don't hate the playa, Hate the game.
Wannie Rocks..Love ya

Team Revenge

2004-11-15T21:48:00.000+08:00

Team Revenge established in 1978...Its been a long time for this design..Had many mishaps here and there.. But still it remains alive and kicking.. I joined Team Revenge because most of my friends are in that design..Well its easy to mingle around with them.. Teaches you everything you need to know to survive on the road..We don't really have enemies cause we have the support of other designs..We have friends from RSM, Racing Poker, Rothmans etc etc etc.. Well its great to be in the group.. I will stand by my Design till i get old.Heheh..

Life is a gamble,
Racing is a game,
We do the racing,
They get the fame.
Team Revenge Since 1978

Atika Atina

2004-11-11T13:28:00.000+08:00

Here's another sis of mine.. Well known her during my ITE Days..very quiet.. always little in words but i would say that she took care of me during my ite days.. Thanks Sis..Well i wish i could right abt you sis.. but time constrain i need to buss off from here to get something from someone.. Peace out aight...

Connection

2004-11-11T13:20:00.000+08:00

Hmm these few days i have been talking with my sis on the phone. Well learnt alot abt her.. What she went through.. Its really sad sometimes when we lose someone but there is always a reason why it happened.. I couldn't forget anyone dear to me.. Even if that person hurt me so bad i still love that person.. I could never hate someone...Its not me..My sis is amazing in all ways or another.. Kind of miss Yuni.. She's been gone for quite a while.. wondering what happened to her... well my sis remind me of her.. Her sweetness.. Her innocents..her smile.. got to comment on the smile.. Really sweet.. hehe..Well i will always love my sista..cause she's everything to me. Miss my sis alot.. Can't describe it but the feeling is there..Love you sis..Be well okie.. Take care of yourself and call me if youre free okie..Muacks Love you.. Take Care...

PlayBoy aka PlaYa

2004-11-09T14:18:00.000+08:00

Well the playa or playboy has many version and characters..There is the loads of gerls kind.. THe Heart Breaker Kind.. and many more... As for me.. hmmm i mix it up..Sometimes it shows sometimes it doesn't.I don't really have feelings for gerls except for a few.. Yuni, Lisa, My Sis( Braderly Love Of course)..Its people that change me that i love most...But from now...Im gonna change my ways with the help of my sis of course to better improve my life and replace the trust i lost for gerls.. Hmm sounds difficult rite. But i can manage.. With sis by my side.. Im happy always..

Cheer Up Sis

2004-11-09T13:59:00.000+08:00

Hey Dearest Sis cheer up aight..SOmetimes shit happens and we could get ourselves in emotional stress and probs... Be strong like you've been telling me.. We are here for each other.. Every step of the way.. Love you sis.. Always do..Don't be sad coz life is short.. Live life to the fullest..Abt hafiz, i could only tell him to cool off for a while.. He says his maam buat hal.. So he is kind of piss off.. So i advice him to relax for a while before messaging you...Just take care of yourself aight..

The New Me

2004-11-08T15:45:00.000+08:00

Well im back and kicking.. Ready for anything in my path..Ive been through hell and back and back again...This time im going to be the best i can be.. With the help of my sis, my friends, my family, my bros... I will come back with a bang..Ive moved on..seeking for that special someone who loves me for me.. I will not make that mistake again like i did the last time..I will survive..Mark my words, Zack's back greater then ever...Peace Out

My SiSta

2004-11-08T15:11:00.000+08:00

Well life goes on and everyday is a new day.. I can't actually replace the ones i love but i could only add in a few more..Like my new sis here..She has really convinced me that life isn't that bad...We need a few changes here and there and it will be all better and all good things will come our way...Maybe im sounding different, thats because i am different in a way of looking at life itself. I could only live it simple and maybe be that way till i die.. No complications just a simple life.. I don't expect people to love me like i love them, but its up to them whether they wanna lose me as a friend or something else..My sis.. she's 17 and she has gone through alot.. In more dificult situations than me..Well i can say that my sis just touch my heart and made me good again..There s nothing more than sisterly love to a brother..Anyway i just got book by a traffic police... 500 bucks.. well serve me rite. I deserve it. This for the time i fight with my ex lisa..for hurting her so much..I see this as a punishment... and also a blessing in disguise to discover that there is someone out there who loves me...Thanks Sis YOu Rawk...UNtill next time..I log on to the net..Love you sis...thanks for being there, even if you're so far away.

My SIns

2004-11-02T13:55:00.000+08:00

Forgive me for i have sinned... Sinned to my family, sin to my friends... and sin to me... I have fail in everyway.. never to recover from the depths of pain and suffering... I have fail you.. .Argh.....this i promise that one day i will find her.. in the mist of reality and truth.. She will be mine one day.. and i will be free...My sin of falling in love...

Back To The Crib

2004-11-02T13:42:00.000+08:00

Well i can certainly feel the pressure, the pain.. The entire thing sucks... You left me for no reason.. How could i accept a reason like that.. Im not a heartlesss bastard...i feel pain too...damn it sucks being alone.. the hopes are high but you didn't blink an eye saying what you said to me. Not fair...i didn't do anything wrong and you already calling me a loser... Broke into my account posing as me..Reading my notes.. hey people got the right to be angry.I never regret what i did or what i have done....Being a playa isn't always bad.. coz i don't feel shit... I love you so much more then you can imagine....My hopes my dreams gone in an instant bcause of you..Why did you call me and stir up my feelings again....Well like you said im moving on...whether its upwards or downwards its still my decision... Come back to me if you love me...Coz in my heart i can never hate, its not me.. Love you deeply.... If only you knew how much....Back to the crib

Sick

2004-10-28T13:57:00.000+08:00

Im here waiting in the dark for i have waited to long.. I will not perish that easily for i am not a quitter...Sick you can say.. i can never accept the fact that we are no more...Your name still beats in my heart and i can never deny that i love you so much to hurt myself in the process... Your name lies on my wrist for each stroke carries the pain im going through...What happen to the promises you made??? Telling me not to get worried...He forced you to decide neither..Well i could never really know what is going on...Im still in the dark waiting to see sunshine...Ive changed for the good but you forced me to change back.. Being i player i am, i already have my first victim in my hands....Waiting to make her what i am.. Miserable...More will come....More will get hurt, till you come back to me....Im sick...Can't you see...Although on the outside, i smile, but deep down inside im in chains..My heart couldn't be free..SICK

Making Myself Busy

2004-10-25T20:15:00.000+08:00

I just borrowed my Bros Skateboard and i have been skating here and there.. Making Myself Busy...I had a fall and it nearly broke my wrist.. Still in pain though..Well miss catwoman alot..She currently sick and out of action...Had a huge headache or something. But its okie.. the show must go on..The cape crusader will roam the streets and keep things in there place..I understand what you are going through and it is difficult...im with you all the way my dear..If your wondering whats wrong with me, its that im always like this..Panick, Scared, Anger all in the same body.. So i tend to be sarcastic at times and sometimes im just okie.. Its the environment im in.. Well the remedy for this, just talk to me.. Tell me whats in your mind and ill be okie. All im asking is, i want to know the truth..The truth is my only wanting

In Dilemma

2004-10-25T13:22:00.000+08:00

Well here i confess and you might read this...And give me a chance to explain..Ive been through hell and back...and now im back in hell in this misery which i felt for the last 2 days.. I don't blame you for what have happened. It hurts bad..Non you can imagine..I could only break down and cry....Although i might tell you to be strong and not cry, im a sucker myself. Im not that strong inside and thats why i was always looking for someone to back me up emotionally. Ive been alone for to long and i don't wanna go back to that state..Looking again..I know you don't actually tell me the whole thing. I hate to guess, i hate to assume, I just wanted you to tell me whats going on.I will understand eventually.. I don't beg for love. I usually give love and don't expect anything in return. Well thats the bad side of me, people may find it weird coz i might get cheated..Well i did..numerous times..It always feel bad..who says its gonna be easy..I just want you to appreciate what you have....If you can't let go of the past, then don't go on looking into the future coz you'll just get stuck in between. Learn to let go and accept what you have now..Since you wanted space for yourself, then let it be..This is the only place where you can know what im thinking off...Honestly speaking....He came back because he miss you..will he change this time or will he be the same like the past. The same reason why you let him go...Are you up to that?? The decision is yours to choose... From your Dear BatmanZ

Freak On A Leash

2004-10-25T13:12:00.000+08:00

SHoot to kill for everyone is dead. Dead to the core of ones mind and body...Im breaking the habit again for ways have changed...Im a freak on a leash.. One wrong step and hell will break loose...This freak is hurting.. hurting to the core..For i have done no sin....no sin to explore...Can't i be well again or come out from this misery.. This pain...I may smile or laugh or even play with you but deep in side who knows....Silence of the lambs i should think of it...Silence of the lambs....My fate,my body, my soul lies on a palm of ones hand.....He/She could either make me or break me.

Confessions

2004-10-20T16:06:00.000+08:00

I confess that i had not felt love for a long time.. Yes its true i lost my love to someone who didn't appreciate love but im willing to feel it now with you....I hurt so many girls in the past and some of the girls hurt me too. I don't deny that i had many gf before...U can say that ive learn alot from my experience but you can trust me now... As i get older... i feel that i need to change my ways for the better. Don't worry im a changed man...I confess i am in love with a girl who stole my heart right at the beginning and im going to stay with her..

Hero

2004-10-20T15:47:00.000+08:00

In this world that we live in, we have many difficulties and hardships..Though we can't go through it all we tend to give up and let it spread and destroy us..We need a hero, we need someone there for us whenever we are in trouble...Heros make us reach for the extreme limit..Heros makes us feel good abt ourselves..Heros can make a diff...what im saying is. Without this hero inside us, we will live in torment. I didn't believe in heros then, but i do believe it now....

Deep Impact

2004-10-14T15:49:00.001+08:00

How do the human mind and body werk.. In mysterious ways..Sometimes it is hard to find the right feeling for the right time....I was asleep, and i was dreaming i was at a distant place i could not recognise... Someone was hurt and eventually died..I felt the pain.. the agony...The began to feel grief..Tears roll down my cheeks and i was deeply hurt... For what reason i was not sure...It has made a deep impact on me for i awaken still with tears in my eyes...Emotions run freely again as i wake up...If i were to feel the some thing for that someone, i will really lose myself eventually.. Thank god it didn't..life goes on per normal...

Project Determination

2004-10-12T16:55:00.000+08:00

The sky turns dark again...Ends another day and begins another night. For the fasting month is approaching and it seems that i will have lots of determination in my mind. I will go through 3 days without my sweetheart's presence but she is always in mind. Distance is always not a problem... Coz we have each other in our minds...I think both of us are afraid of playing each other out but the fact is that we are not..I can ensure you that im really serious abt us...We...you and i...Yesterday i walked at West Coast Park..Its the first time i walked there without a problem in mind.. I have only you to smile about. Sitting on top of the Pyramid, i felt calm and collected...Project Determination has begun for i will put my efforts to make werk....

Reconnected

2004-10-12T12:34:00.000+08:00

Finally the moment of truth has come...I am connected to the world again haha..I have been lucky these few weeks..And i am greatful for it.. yeah i am... haha..Can't say much now...I can't actually think of anything to say... hmmm but i will right more tomolo or something...

Life is hard

2004-10-11T13:32:00.000+08:00

Current life is hard for me... Its all abt money...Its been sickening to pay all those bill and in return have no money for yourself.. thats pathetic..Hai~~~ but at least i have my dear...The love of my life.. Treasure every moment with you girl.. You are my inspiration and my motivation...Its hard to get a girl like you... Consider myself super lucky.. :) Im going to try my best to make it all the way....Love ya

The next chapter

2004-10-11T13:23:00.000+08:00

Its official... Me and her....finally i can relax abit knowing that someone out there cares for me like i care for her..I know its gonna be a rough ride im sure i and her go a distance.. We have our intimate moments and i treasure every single day of it....Love you so much... You are my life now... my soul.. don't you ever walk away from me...Please..Well errr im okie these few days.. still stuck up with my lost hp... and motorbike instalment and duit saman.. i will be dead broke then few months..... maybe after hari raya then i will be okie and kicking..But look at the bright side,( like me dear would tell me) at least i have you.. hehehh..Hope to see you soon my dear...

The Beginning

2004-09-29T19:59:00.000+08:00

Here in my life two people have entered my life and changed me completely..I feel that life has a meaning that i could only learn from time. I was a player, a person heartless for girls.. Who only wanted to play the game and never wana lose.. People look at it as "don't hate the player, hate the game." But soon the first person change my life and taught me how to love and how to give and take in life...She taught me well.. and i realise that love is not abt lust...its abt trsting the other party and missing each others company... The second made me change my ways and made me stop something which will kill me in future.... I m greatful to both of them... I hope she stays with me not wanting to let go.. like what im doing now.. I miss her most of the time and i really can't stand to part with her.. I pray to be with her everday.... I hope one day it will come true...

Revenge

2004-09-27T18:46:00.000+08:00

Is there something in my mind which i need to hear...where is the justice i longed for...Is this what human kind has learnt all these years... I am dissaointed and out.... Break the silennce kill the time for Revenge is Sweet and it is all mine. He's face in my mind i will always wanna kill and revenge.....Revenge is sweet...

2004-09-22T13:52:00.000+08:00

What i feel nowdays... well im just glad that ive found someone who i can trust..Sometimes we need to feel love for someone.. its a healthy thing you know... love. hehhe these few days have been wonderful.. with hope in my mind..But at the same time frightened of being left again.. cant go through it again.. no never again.. i want to stay and never leave...thats what i want.. and hopefully one 1 day i will get it... I Pray..for she is the one for me...

Revenge Is Sweet

2004-09-22T13:26:00.000+08:00

Coming out from the depths of torture will i revenge my fate. Never will i look back to my past and wonder. What i revenge for is my life ive been through...Revenge is Sweet....